You are meant to be

I'm writing this at my sister's house.  Alex is asleep next to me.  He turns 4 this Thursday.  Ariana is 20 months old and asleep in the pack n play.  

I want you to know how much I want you.  I love you.  I see you.  I can see you playing with Alex and Ariana.  I know you are missing in our pictures.  I have never been more positive about anything in my life.  I need you.  I feel you.  I am excited at getting pregnant with you.  There are times I get so happy with the feeling of my family being complete and my family isn't complete without you.  You are meant to be.  I can't wait to meet you.

Love, your mommy

I want you..

I saw this picture day and started crying.  I want my third child so bad.