Thanksgiving

Well, Ariana hated the cute uncomfortable outfit I put her in.  But she did look adorable.

Kisses

Tomorrow is the day...

So tomorrow is the day...

I think I've been really calm.  Much more calm than I thought I would.

One piece of advice I'd give to someone about to give birth, to their second child, is higher a housekeeper when you are in the hospital.  It was so nice to spend the week before giving birth, focusing on spending time with my son rather than cleaning the house.  I then spent most of this week focusing on the picture of my daughter and taking it easy.

This pregnancy vs the last one.

Somehow, this was easier.

Time flew by because I was so busy with Alex that I would often forget that I was pregnant.  I had a round ligament spasm once this pregnancy vs a handful of times last time.  I remember having shooting anal pain last time, didn't get that this time.  I did get contractions about two months ago, but those stopped and didn't reoccur.  The hemrroids I remember being pretty bad last time, it's only been an issue for the last week. (Just make sure you have the right supplies.. Look at "trying not to be miserable".)  But on the same token.. Giving birth a week early will make the hemrroids easier (I think). I also think not having a vaginal delivery would take some pushing pressure off those too.

I'm only starting to get the claustrophobic/I need to sit up feeling.  Hasn't been too bad.  I know last pregnancy I had these weird feeling of feeling like someone could be after me because I'm pregnant.  (I think I heard of a death of a pregnant women while I was pregnant the first time and that sent me in panic mode.)  Didn't get that this time around.  It's only been the last couple days that I've had urgency to pee and don't need to go at all.  So overall this pregnancy has been so much easier.  I may have had hiccups in my hoo-ha vs my ribs because she's breeched, but I think her being breeched made some issues easier and some issues harder.

I had some friends over last night for a girl's night last night to do nails.  That was a lot of fun and great female bonding time. 

My mom and sister came in tonight.  We had Exotic Thai as a last meal.  And the family time was awesome.

I have to say... Knowing when I'm giving birth has been such a blessing.  It put me at so much ease.  I'm such a control freak/anxiety case, this has made it a lot easier.

The only issue I had was saying good night to Alex tonight.  I was crying as I held him.  He wiped my tears and told me to stop crying.  He gave me a very long hug and the longest kiss I've ever had.  I love that little man so much and I have to admit my only fear is how to raise an infant with a toddler at the same time.

But it's time for bed.  I keep reminding myself "look at what your getting and not what you are losing."

Looking forward to meeting you tomorrow Ariana.

Praying for a safe delivery and a healthy child.

Trying not to be miserable...

Up to now I think I've been very lucky in the hemrroids department.  In the last week it's gotten bad.

Times I have been screwed is if I don't have the Cottenelle wipes.  Zach had to make an emergency run last Thursday.  He picked up two Cottenelle packets and two generic.  Unfortunately the generic brand has been a huge issue!!  I've been having a bit of a diarrhea issue and the wipes have severely made it worse, so now I have a mixture of hemrroids cream and butt paste/diaper rash ointment on my butt and I'm walking around like a cowboy.  It's horrible.  I honestly don't know how I would make it another week and a half to my due date.

I've had to take an extra shower per day cause plain warm water as seemed to help my situation.  Just gotta make it to Thursday.

Dear pregnant mamas

Dear pregnant mamas, for 3rd trimester... Make sure you have adult sanitary wipes and hemorrhoid cream.  And if you run out of either:  When I say Pinterest just saved my ass... I mean it.  But... Don't... Run... Out...

My hubby ran to CVS to get more wipes.  Using baby body wash helped a little.  I took a long shower letting warm water run over the hemrroids and then applied cream... I seem to be doing better..

This sucks!!

Maternity Pics

Today we took our maternity pics with Allison.

I have to admit.  I was totally upset.  Allison had all these cute ideas to do with Alex and he wasn't having it.  It was totally disappointing.  The more upset Alex got, the more frustrated Zach got, and I left feeling like it wasn't a good experience.

But.. I keep trying to remind myself.. When we took our family pics at the beach.  We were all soaked and had a screaming baby.

So I really hope Allison performs one of her miracles again.

Going crazy...

Tonight I had a night out with Zach and Ariana was going nuts.  I don't know if she is testing her boundaries or what.. But I feel like I am in the alien movie.  She's been moving so much for the last couple hours... My tummy doesn't seem happy.. I have a little heartburn.  I'm hoping it gets easier... But I'm thankful c section means she's coming out at least a week early.

Scheduled C Section

C section scheduled for November 14 at 7 am.

My sister asked how I feel about it...

Just a little frustration.

Not that I'm a control freak... But seeing as the delivery is scheduled, I feel like I should have some control?!?

A 11-11 baby would be nice.

A 11-12-13 baby would be fun.

A 11-13 would be great because Alex's birthday is also the 13.

But no... 11-14.... Still no control.  They wouldn't schedule the 12th because she has to be 39 weeks (what is one day?!?). And I could have the 13th, but I would have to fast for half the day.. I'm not going to be a hungry pregnant woman.. The 14th it is..

My only hope is she wants to come out a little earlier..  We'll see...

But... I do have to admit... When Alex saw Ariana on the screen and he said, "sis-ter" that was adorable.

How am I feeling...

Ok.. So I have to admit... This Blog has gotta be super depressing?  Either I write about when I'm miserable or when funny things happen and I'm sure the misery far out weighs the funny.  

But here I am.  Almost 36 weeks.  Approx. 4 weeks to go.  I'm feeling fine.  I might even say good (but I don't want to jinx myself).  I feel like I take a huge hit when she's growing and then I plateau and I'm fine.  

When I hit 34 weeks.. I had my ass handed to me.  Was exhausted. My back was killing me.  My patience was out the window.  Walking seemed too strenous.  Last Thursday I thought I had tennis elbow (let's add tendonitis on everything). I went to bed at 9pm.  I started to wear spanks to try and support my back as well as wear good tennis shoes for support.  I have stretch marks on my tummy.  I've been drinking an insane amount of water and chewing an insane amount of ice.  (Which actually is different from my first pregnancy where I didn't want to drink water, but did want to chew on ice.  They told me I was dehydrated when I checked in for delivery.. I'll be surprised if I hear that this time.). I usually have to use the restroom at least once when going grocery shopping... I have had to use it twice in one trip.  

I did lose my patience a little with Alex today.  I needed to bake up some chocolate bread real quick.. And because I love cooking with him I enlisted his help.  Well because I wanted to do it real quick.. I didn't put on aprons and he covered me in batter.... And... He may have sneezed right in the batter?!?  I'm not sure.  God.. I hope not.  The tv turned on almost right after we were done cause mama was losing her cool.

We find out on Friday if we are scheduling a c section.  Anyway that it turns out... I'm still nervous for delivery.  I just want them to hand me my baby girl...

Prego Tummy

Insomnia....

Earlier today I was a a baby shower.  I was talking about how my insomnia has been pretty bad this pregnancy.  I've had at least two complete nights without sleep and the dr has giving me a prescription for a sleep aid, but either I can't bring myself to fill it or the thought if walking through the parking lot, through Costco, to fill the prescription seems like too much for me.  It's probably a combination of the both.  And as I'm talking to these mothers I'm thinking that my erratic sleeping of habits of not sleeping til 3am or waking from 3-6am isn't that bad, but of course what happens again tonight? 

I start to get tired at 8:30pm.  Ariana feels like she's growing again, I'm feeling sick to my stimach and my stomach is getting heavy.  Getting up from lying down is tiring and painful and I just want to lay down, but the frequency of my thirst and ice craving keeps me getting up to go to the bathroom.

So I get ready for bed and I'm praying at 9:30pm, I can go to sleep.  But it doesn't happen.  I lay there.  Rolling over and over again.  Trying to get comfortable and occasionally opening my eyes to see what time it is.  I watch every hour go past.  At around 2am I have a dream of a past co-worker helping me go to sleep, and it works.  So I'm having a dream about me dreaming in my sleep.

All is good, until my sister and her husband get home from a wedding they were attending.  My stupid dog kept growling and I could feel myself being pulled out of every level of sleep.  I'm not a violent person, but there are times my dogs make me so angry.  So once my dog finally shut up... It was no use.  I couldn't go back I sleep.

I knew my hubby needed to get up at 3:30am cause he's leaving for Monterey today.  At 4:20, I asked if he was going to get up and he was startled by my being awake.  As he was getting ready to leave, I pull out my book, grab a scape from the earlier baby shower, and make a cup of tea.  My hubby keeps telling me I should go to bed, but once it's past 4:30am, and you can't sleep, what's the point?

I start reading and I stop to go to the bathroom and I'm sad.  It's because I real of urine.  Not only is it bad that usually my bladder can't wait for me to actually be on the toilet before going, but for the past few days, I've had to wear spanks because my back is hurting so bad.  With how tight the spanks are, it's even more impossible to make to the bathroom in time.

So I'm just sad.  These thoughts of.. Can you imagine getting old and having this be your daily life??  And I'm sad because there are those pregnant women who look like they have it all together when I feel like I'm falling apart.  My husband jokes he doesn't think I'm going to make it the next 5 weeks.  My stomach is clearly bigger than it was in my last pregnancy, and I took a Hip Hop class the weekend before I gave birth when I was pregnant with Alex... Now I can't even imagine walking across a Costco.

So I'm throwing myself a pity party.  And is it that every pregnant woman puts on a brave face?  Or am I just a wimp?

So I open my book One Thousand Gifts Devotional by Ann Voskamp.  The book is good and occasionally has really touching moments.  So one of the stories is about a woman who was playing charades and sprains her ankle.  How frustrated she is at her luck and how things like this always happens to her.  She goes on (of course) to talk about her friend who has 5 young children and she's dying of breast cancer.  Athough this woman has every right to be angry and upset, she is grateful for the drugs that keep her alive for one more day.

Of course we all need stories like this to try and keep things in perspective.  If I can just focus on the big picture of making my beautiful daughter... Hopefully I can get past all the pain and discomfort that I'm going to feel for the last 6 weeks of this pregnancy.  Just gotta stay focused...

Underwear....

Spider-Man!!"  

Wearing his Halloween costume probably isn't going to be appropriate.

"Elmo??"  Asks my hubby.

"Elmo!!"  Alex exclaims.

I answer.. "He is not wearing Elmo to our baby shower."

I look at Alex and say, "I've got something nice or you to wear."

Alex's eyes get big, and he wispers, "underwear?!?"

I look at him, "Do you want to wear underwear?"

"Underwear....."

Christmas Shopping

*update*

Bed Bath and Beyond screwed up my order by sending me the wrong picture too.  I called them and the lady said I could take it to the store to return it and I told her I'm 8 months pregnant... And.. It's their mistake.  So they sent ups to my house to get the picture.

When I went to Kohls to return the extra items to get my $100 back.  I realized when I got back to the car I had returned 5 items when I meant to return 4.  In tears.. I waddle all the way back to the customer service. I guess the lady who did the returns felt bad for me and took off an extra sweater.  Which was super nice... I just wish she had told me...

Christmas shopping getting closer to done.  Christmas card is designed and Christmas labels are in the works...

Two year vs Three Year Age Gap With Kids

After Alex was born I interviewed every mother I could trying to figure out whether I wanted my kids two or three years apart.

What I was told:

Two years.... 

Pro:

-They are close in age and best friends

-They will be at the same school for longer, so it will save from having to drop off at multiple schools.

Cons:

-The first two years are really hard cause they are both so young.

-older child will be more likely to be at home because they aren't at school age. Which means it's harder on mom juggling two kids.

-The toddler has limited understanding as to pregnancy and the baby... So they aren't as helpful.

Three years....

Pro:

-The older one may have a better understanding of pregnancy and the baby, so they might help out more.

-The older one is more self-sufficient.

-The older one may be in school, so it gives the mother more time with their infant.

Cons:

-There is a larger age gap between the kids.  Some parents said their kids were best friends, some had more fights due to age.

-Kids are at separate schools later down the line.

*this is what I've been told.  Others may have different experiences.

We decided to have the two year age gap.  I wanted it that way because my sister and I are 3.5 years apart and had a hard time connecting due to the age gap.

One thing I asked myself before getting pregnant was... How hard is it taking care of a toddler while pregnant?  Here are the pros and cons to having a two year old while pregnant..

The benefit of pregnancy the second time around is...

The toddler helps you forget that your pregnant (cause you're so busy) the pregnancy goes a lot quicker.  

It's so much more relaxing because you have a better idea of what to expect from pregnancy, and you know what to expect having a newborn.  I hate being pregnant, so it is really nice to look at my son and realize that this 9 month process is definitely worth it.  So the second time around is much easier than the first time.... For me.

You already have a lot of the stuff for baby number two.  You're registry is nowhere as long and you know what you need.

The cons:

You don't get as much sleep.  The first time around it was easier to sleep in or nap when I wanted to.  I have been known to pass out at 8:30pm on occasion.

Bending down. The lifting of a toddler isn't as bad as I thought it was.  That's the big fear... Carrying a toddler while pregnant, but you can sit them on the hip, and that's not as bad.  But occasionally bending over and trying to get him in your arms... That's hard.  When the toddler is running from you to get in their carseat.  That's when the challenge comes.

The running.  Here is the big one.  Once you slow down.. They speed up.  Taking my child to the mall or library was the worse.  He would take off..and physically.. it was more challenging to catch him.  So that is probably the hardest part.  But I would find where he'd run the fastest and either I'd have friends with me, or we'd stop going to those places.

The last thing to consider is potty training of the older child and when you want to tackle it.  I've heard boys take longer than girls, so I'm hoping to tackle that when he's closer to three and my baby is closer to 6 months.  Whereas if there is a 3 year age difference, I would guess you'd tackle potty training before giving birth?

Whatever decision is made... It seemed like there was always the same number of pros vs cons as to how far apart to space kids.  Best of luck!

Drs visit

This morning there was some blood when I went to the bathroom.  I called the dr and they moved my Friday appointment to today.

Baby is fine.  Still breeched.  He said it was probably my hemrroids, which haven't bothered me too much this pregnancy (knocking on wood and thank God)  We're going to talk in two weeks about planning a c-section.

Part of me is sad.  I gave birth naturally to Alex who was a 9 lb baby.  I have these visions of an easy second delivery with a quick recovery time.  As much as I prayed that Alex was breeched because I was so scared to deliver naturally, (I was hoping that would have been God's way to guarantee me a c-section so I didn't have to make the decision), but he wasn't.  This baby will probably be closer to 8 lbs.  I wanted to enduce early.  I wanted a fast delivery, a small baby, and fast recovery time.  I'm partially upset that now with a c-section... although the delivery will probably be much easier.. The recovery time could be as bad or worse as when I had Alex.  

I'm going to have the c-section and count my lucky stars that something could have gone wrong with the delivery and by c-section I'm avoiding it.  It's the only thing I can do and trying to stay positive. 😄

Sprinkle

Today my mommy friends are throwing me a sprinkle.  I'm super excited.  I was ready two hours early for God's sake, but I'm starting to have warning signs that are alarming me.  My underwear was totally wet and I don't remember leaking. I'm really lightheaded and sick to my stomach.  Is it nerves?  I don't know.  I'm just not feeling well at all...

Updated...

Sprinkle went really well.  Had an amazing time.  Such great friends!  And got tons of baby girl clothes!!  So happy and so excited!

Sister's 30th..

I'm 7.5 months pregnant.  I was super nervous about coming down for my sister's birthday because I didn't know how I'd do in the car for a 3 hour drive.  I was very happy that I handled the drive well, was able to see my sister, and see their new house which I probably won't get to see for a long one after Ariana is born.

The other night...

So I have crazy hormones this pregnancy.  I have no desire for sex, but when I do, I'm like a 15 year old boy who has to have it immediately.  The other night I was in he mood and Zach til he wasn't interested.  So I went to the bathroom and snuck into the guest room to take care of myself.  When I came back hubby was on the bed ready to go...

Eek!!

She's breeched...

So she hasn't flipped.  Got the news she was breeched and I'm freaking out.  Talked to Judy today and she said Van Geem is one of the only drs that will deliver a breeched baby naturally.

Sorry... Not happening..

She's flipped...

I think...

I think she's flipped.  She's all up in my ribs.  I have a hard time laying down or anything in between.  Hubby sees me sitting straight up with perfect posture because almost any other position is uncomfortable.  Still have 8 weeks to go. We see the doctor on Thursday.  We're gonna ask to induce early.. Kinda nervous to ask..

Bigger than my head..

At Target buying a strapless bra for a wedding I'm going to tonight.  I am totally overwhelmed.  These bras look like their bigger than my head.  Can not believe a DD doesn't fit me...

Gas...

As a sequel to yesterday's post...  And not be crude...

But I am so glad my son doesn't find farting funny.

Because every morning...  With my big ole tummy...

I toot my way to the bathroom...

And in any other circumstance....  I would expect my son to find it hilarious..

I guess this a bonus point to being 7 months pregnant with a two year old.

And on the rare occasion... When I'm in bed trying to sleep...

In the darkness my body makes sounds I don't want it to...

My husband is smart enough to pretend like he didn't hear anything...

9 weeks to go...

#pleasuresofpregnancy

Poop...

Ok... So here's one of those TMI posts...

Poop.  Yes poop.  My poop has been entirely different this entire pregnancy.  Sometimes it doesn't want to come out. (That's why there are fiber pills next to the toilet at all times) and diarrhea hasn't yet messed with this pregnancy and I'm hoping it doesn't.  But... Poop.

It's hard to wipe and requires so much more toilet paper. I have clogged the toilet so many time this pregnancy.. I'm happy my husband hasn't thrown the plunger at me.

It's a different consistency and it goes flying... Yes flying....

I wiped my butt once and found some on the shower curtain.  Found it on the toilet seat.  On the floor.  It gets freakin everywhere.

I'm starting to have difficulty reaching my butt now, so now I have adult wipes to help.  Truth.  Cause if I don't.. My butt gets irritated and I need diaper cream.  Seriously?!?  

Can pregnancy get more degrading?

Sleeping...

I have found a way that I finally feel comfortable sleeping.

I take the memory foam pillow.. Tuck part of it under my stomach and throw my leg over it.

The deeper sleep has lead to some crazy dreams.  Last night I dreamt I was in a shark tank and had to flee from sharks.  Very Sharknado.  And the night before I dreamt I was in my sister's wedding.  Was trying to figure out the details for everything and in the course of it.. Kept messing everything up.  ie.. Catching flowers on fire, moving in the pictures, a dog peed on my sister's dress.  Will see what I come up with tonight..

Contractions and heat..

Braxton Hicks started two nights ago.  I get contractions 3-6 times a day.  I grab my tummy and people ask if I'm ok.  Tonight we went to Erin's house for lasagna and s'mores.  I started to have contractions and over heat.  I seriously have 10 more weeks of this?  I came home, stood in front of the fan and soaked my feet in cold water.  I warned my hubby that B*tchy Cheryl may come out... I don't mean it if she does...

The day has come...

Where I might actually strangle one of my dogs.  I don't know what about pregnancy makes Jonesy want to eat the crotch out of my underwear.. But he's done it to my favorite yoga pants....

Grrrrrrr......

Sis-ter

This morning I point to my stomach and ask Alex, "Who's that?"  He comes up and puts a hand on my stomach and says, "Sis-ter."  Then he put both hands on my stomach and says, "Big tummy."  

I have to say... I am enjoying what is probably the only time of my life where my son can call me fat and it warms my heart. 😉

Update.. Alex would commonly put his hands on his tummy and say sis-ter too.  Do maybe he doesn't understand, but he'd still so stinkin cute.

Feeling awful...

For the last couple days I've been feeling horrible.  I am so tired and short tempered.  I'm having a hard time doing anything.  Our vacuum isn't working and the dog hair is driving me crazy.  I don't know if nesting is starting?  But the tidiness of the house is driving me nuts.  Alex is running away from me for everything. I use to be so quick, so he may think it's ok because I can't catch him.  Today the dogs peed in the house and on our bed... Zach's out of town, so it stresses me more than normal and I feel lonely cause he's not here.  I'm so tired.  I don't want to do anything.  And I feel so crappy that Alex has been playing on the iPad for almost two hours, and I can't get myself to do anything but sit here.  I also think my hemorrhoids from the first pregnancy are coming back.  😣👎

Update... Hemorrhoids are not back.  False alarm.

Good Night Ariana

Zach told Alex to say, "Goodnight Ariana."

Alex put his head on my stomach and said, "Goodnight Ariana."

😍

Hallelujah!

I've spent the last 2 days freaking out because I could not find my engagement ring.

As a set... with my wedding ring, I never lost it.

But when my fingers swelled, I could only fit on my engagement ring.  Eventually my fingers swelled and I couldn't wear it anymore.

Then I wondered where my engagement ring was when I stumbled a crossed my wedding band.  I couldn't find it anywhere.  On it's own, it's a relatively small ring.

I found it behind the toaster!!

Words of wisdom for pregnant women....

Either put your rings away early... or wear it around your neck.

But whatever you do... DON'T LOSE THEM!

You Have Hair Like Barbie

When I was pregnant with Alex I remember people telling me how gorgeous my hair was, but, "Too bad it's all going to fall out once you give birth."  That seriously upset me during my first pregnancy.

Today I went to my friend's baby shower.

A little girl came up to me and told, "You have hair like Barbie."  

In my head I thought... "Thanks, but too bad it's gonna all gonna fall out."

At least the thought doesn't freak me out anymore...

#whattheydonttellyouaboutpregnancy

Bug bites...

:(

Oh 80's....

Couldn't fall asleep last night til 1am.  I was trying to take a nap during Alex's nap time, but the neighbors were blaring loud music next door, so I couldn't sleep.  After an hour and a half I realized that the loud music was coming from my husband... who told me to take a nap... blaring it from my speakers.... right next to my bedroom... next to the head board... on the other side of the wall.  He says I should have known from the 80's music it was him. Doh!!  ::smacks head::  #coffeetime

Spots on my chest

So I'm looking up online because I noticed I have what looks like burst blood vessels on my chest.  According to online... it seem like it's normal.  But one woman said it best, "Why does pregnancy work so hard to make a woman feel unattractive?"  Amen sista...

Oh Crap!

Looking at my countdown app. I thought, "Yay!  22 weeks til Christmas!"  Then I looked up and thought, "OMG!  17 weeks til I have another baby!  Oh crap!"

What have I done?

22 weeks...

I think every pregnant woman has that moment where they think, "What have I done?  I don't want to be pregnant anymore.  Once I give birth... My life will never be the same.  There is no way to get my previous life back.  What have I done?"  I just keep thinking how much I love Alex and how much greatness he has brought to my life and how it will only get better....

FYI...

Today was laundry day and I got desperate on underwear...

FYI... A one size fits all thong does not apply to pregnant women...

My baby has a vagina!

I get these weekly e-mails.  The last sentence seems so awkward and cracks me up.

Oops..

I totally farted when my hubby and I were laying in bed next to each other.  We were both playing with our phones before  lights out.  I giggled, cause I try not to make farting in front of my hubby a normal thing, but when there was no response.. I realized he had his earphones in!   Point Cheryl.. Pregnancy Zero!  Victory!

Got kicked in church..

20 weeks

Was sitting in church today.. And I felt kicking!!  No longer butterflies.  

I gasped. One took me by surprise.

What has my life come to?

I took a chicken salad hoagie to a party today because I wanted to make sure I had something more to eat than chips and dips.  Of course I didn't want to whip it out and eat it in front of everyone, so I took it with me to the bathroom.  Thougt I'd kill two birds with one stone.  I look up and see myself eating a hoagie while going to the bathroom... What has my life come to??

Literally..

I literally just cussed at my bladder.  

Seriously?!?  I'm in the bathroom.. Can you wait the two seconds its going to take me to get to the toilet?

It hurts my heart

I can't stop crying with the thought that once Ariana is born, that I won't be able to spend all my time with Alex.  I keep having these visions of him calling my name and him not understanding that I can't put the baby down to read him a book.  I keep seeing him clawing at my husband so he can get to me and Zach dragging him away.  My heart is broken for my son because he does not understand what having this baby is going to mean and it hurt to know that having his baby will be a painful experience for him.  He'll only be two years old.  I know he won't remember it in the grand scheme of things, but it hurts my heart to think about it.

19 weeks...

With the belly cramps, belly itching, deep sleep with crazy dreams.. I turn around and my baby girl has gotten bigger... 19 weeks..  #alexsomehowgetsinthepictureagain

Baby!

19 weeks...

I was holding Alex.  I pointed to my tummy and said, "baby".  I pointed to him and said, "baby".  He pointed to my boobies and said, "baby".  

Not quite..

Getting real...

So of I really wanted to keep a true pregnancy journal.. I have to record the good/bad/and the ugly.

So I can't be afraid of the ugly.

If you are squeamish... Divert your eyes.

No one under the age of 18...

Last weekend, I was having a great "Mom's Night Out".  I sneeze and peed myself.  Not just a little.  Enough to feel uncomfortable about it.

But wait... It gets better...

Awhile ago... I was too embarrassed to post this... But what the hell??

I had such bad diarrhea.. I didn't make it to the bathroom in time.  Trying to remember if I ever shat myself before?  If this is what it's like getting old and needing an adult diaper... No fun.

Tonight I was at a friends house.  They have a two bedroom apartment... With thin walls.  My stomach was acting up. (I've haven't wished to be in a bathroom with a loud fan so badly in a long time.)  With everything that came out.. I'm sure some vital organs must have come out too.  And I'm pretty sure... Even though I did my best to control the monstrosity that was happening to me... I'm sure they heard some of it.  Thank God I didn't clog their toilet and I made it through the rest of the night.

I keep getting yelled at at home for clogging the toilet with all the extra toilet paper I need since being pregnant.  A woman's gotta do what a woman's got to do and things are complicated while pregnant.

At least this time around it feels more second nature.  It doesn't take me so much by surprise and I know it will go back to normal someday.  But yeah.. It does make you fear those days when we get old and have these issues regularly.  

All I can think about is someday I'll be holding my beautiful baby girl.  I'll go through hell for it... Willingly...

Green Onions

18 weeks...

After I put on my sweater AND sweatshirt because apparently I'm going to freeze to death this pregnancy (Which... My doctor says is normal.)  I walk into the kitchen to see a bowl full of chopped green onions which never made it into dinner tonight.  When I discovered it... My hubby asked if that was what I meant when I said "something is missing.  I don't like it".  #revengeofthepregomamabrain.#givemechocolateandhousewives

Baby's Gender

I was so excited with this pregnancy to find out the gender.  Was dying to know if we were having a baby girl or boy.  (Of course I was probably just as excited the first time around too.). I heard about a place in Glendale where you can find out a baby's gender as early as 14 weeks.  When I told him about it, he said $50 is $50 and we could wait.

Hen my Mom gave me $50 cash for Zach's birthday present.. I asked if it was ok to spend it on the ultrasound... And he of course liked the idea.

I made the appointment the day I turned 14 weeks.  Zach left work early.  It took us an hour to get there.  I used the restroom before heading in and the technician said my bladder was too empty, so I chugged a large bottle of water I had in the car.  Went back and sure enough the baby was sitting their with its legs crossed.  There was nothing we could do to get it to uncross.  The tech said "the good news is you can come back within the next two weeks for free!"  I was really hesitant to do so because it was such a long drive and I would be so pissed if We still couldn't find out.

But, my Zach said it was ok if Mom and I went last Friday.  The technician was so much better and was super stoked to find out we are having a girl!!

Premature sleeping...

I fell asleep from 7pm to midnight.  In the immortal words of my husband, as he got ready for bed, "You are f*#%ked."  I'm still chuckling about it.  Of course, the longer I'm awake, the less funny that will get...

Today..

13 weeks... 1week in 2nd trimester.

I had an ultrasound specialist say, "third trimester?"  

Nope!  

I'm glad you think my baby is 3 months older than it actually is.. Thanks for calling me fat.  :-/

Fighting morning sickness

Ok...

So the only thing that helps me is to start out my day with English tea with milk and sugar.

I wake up in the morning really dehydrated.  If I drink water.. I throw up.  Starting with tea with some dairy helps.  I have my tea with a fig cookie.

I can have breakfast and usually I need a mid-morning snack before I can drink water.

My prenatal vitamins make me sick.. So either I need to have it with a smoothie or juice and I can get it down.

So sick..

13 weeks....

My back is killing me.

I went to bed and had the chills.

I stayed in bed til I felt I had a fever.

I know I'm dehydrated, but water makes me sick.

I'm now sitting here with chapped lips.

Drinking orange juice... Afraid of what the sugar is going to do to me at 11pm at night.

I'm just hoping I'm going to feel better soon.

Zach and I are getting snippy with each other, but he doesn't realize how sick I am.  I don't want to say "I've been battling constipation for a week... and now I have diarrhea... Can you help a chick out??"

I want to make a shirt that says...

WARNING

I am a bitch.

I am angry.

I cry a lot.

I'm sick.

I'm tired.

I'm fat.

I hurt.

My house is a mess.

I forget things.

I'm insane.

Don't try to figure me out.

I don't make sense.

I'm growing A HUMAN BEING!!

(Cut a girl some slack)

12 week dr. Appt.

Here I am.  Based on how sick I am.. Either this baby is super healthy or something is very wrong.

With Alex at 8 weeks.. All my symptoms were gone.  I was convinced I miscarried.  

As healthy as I think this baby is.. I'm still nervous...

Baby's kicking!!

13 weeks..

Laying on my side.. Slightly on my tummy.. I can feel the baby kicking!!

If the old wives tale is true...

The old wives tale...

If you are craving sweets, it's a girl. If you are craving meats and cheeses, it's a boy.

I think the chocolate covered strawberries that I made yesterday, the Rice Krispie treats I made two days ago, and that I asked for a box of Sees candy for my birthday..

Are all indications it's a girl.

Or that I have a crazy sweet tooth.. Which I do.

We'll see...

Chills...

12 weeks... the size of a lime.

I've been having chills during this pregnancy. Like I have a fever kinda chills, but no fever. I don't remember having that with Alex.

I do remember not being able to breathe through my nose during my pregnancy with Alex. Went through a couple bottles of nasal spray, cause it made it hard to fall asleep at night.

Every pregnancy is different, but I hope these chills go away soon.

Sleep...

I've had such issues with sleep during this pregnancy.

This tea has saved me. I make it 30-45 minutes before bed and it really helps me relax.

Now I'm posting at 3am and I'm counting on it to help me back to sleep.

Nite Nite!

Waking up..

Waking up because you think you hear a baby crying.... Super creepy!!

6 more months to go!

Poor Alex

11 weeks- size of a fig.

I've thrown up twice with this pregnancy so far. Once after cooking all day and too much heat and once after throwing away leftovers.

This morning I tried to throw out leftovers, and when Alex saw me throwing up, he got scared and started crying. It broke my heart. :(

I didn't get sick until I was in the second trimester with Alex. I'm starting to think this is going to be a harder pregnancy. I'm already the size I was at 6 months pregnant with Alex and I'm only 3. Here's to feeling better soon!

Cravings..

11 weeks... The size of a fig.

I'm sorry baby. I have failed you. I want to eat healthy. I want to grow a very healthy baby. But all I want it highly processed foods. I really just want to sit and eat a bowl of Kraft macaroni and cheese and I don't know the last time I had that. I just want to eat bread and olive oil... Nachos.. And chocolate. I can't look at meat or vegetables without getting sick. I'm going to try a smoothie diet to see if somehow I can trick myself to eat proteins and fruit?? (Then I'll allow the pasta that I'm craving. Apparently wheat pasta is a no go for you.) But I'm trying to make it work. I can't stand the sight of chicken or beef. I hope this will get better soon.

Boobs!!

11weeks - The size of a fig

I just wanna say.. My boobs look amazing! They are so painful and I'm gaining weight everywhere, but man! My boobs look amazing!!

Tea for Two

Today was a great day.  I got to see friends I've had for 25 years.  Truly... I choose to believe.. I'm not that old... but today we celebrated Mia's birthday.

Mia and I were in 2nd grade together.  We grew up in Brownies and Girl Scouts together.  We met Violet in 3rd grade and in 4th grade Violet, Mia, Christy Brent, Miriam Grande, and I were inseparable.

Throughout Jr High and High School we were friends and of course lost each other after graduating High School.  But... thanks to Facebook... we have been reunited.

I found Mia on Facebook years ago and surprised Violet at her baby shower for her fourth child... she now has an amazing family of five children.

When Alex was four months old, Violet enthusiastically talked Mia into coming to my house to come see Alex.  I was stoked they drove that far to come to see us.

When I announced on Facebook that I was pregnant, Mia private messaged me that she too was pregnant.  She is due late September.  We are 7 weeks apart.

Mia invited me to the tea party she was having for her birthday.  Not only was I was excited to see Mia and Violet (since I hadn't seen them since 2011), but I was also surprised it wasn't that far of a drive.  Everyone had a 30 minute drive, including me, even though I was coming from the opposite direction.

Mia, I'm excited for your new bundle of joy.  I can see you having a boy.  ;)  At 17 weeks, you are very close to finding out!  So excited!  Congratulations!
 
It was great seeing you ladies!  Thanks for a fun afternoon!